In order to get ourselves out of emotional dark holes we need to seek to reach an understanding of why things are the way they are. In doing so, compassion can soon replace blinding rage, self hate, guilt, confusion, etc. which only lead to hell of sorts.
An emotional dark spot turned into another insightful and speculative diary entry, with a voice of strife, and a voice of reason…
Love and understanding will help us through this mess.
Pain, fear, and anger see no reason. They only see and experience pain and a blinding sense of injustice. They don’t see reason; therefore, they do not know compassion. And the mess in between is what we get stuck in.
God knows of the strife… of the blinding rage.
God understands! It is us who need to understand, and to then let go of the pain….of the needless suffering.
Here is my ALL, to You God. I surrender this ALL to you. This is ALL of me, and ALL my experiences; and I hand IT to You, God. For I know, that THROUGH me, You get to experience ALL of life!
How could you think ‘God’ would want ALL YOUR SHIT!? (Voice of strife adds)
How could you imagine God would not want to experience ALL It/He/She CAN be? (I add)
You think you are stumping me?!
You don’t feel you ‘belong’ to the kingdom of God.
I’ve been put here for a reason.
What is that?
To make you see different/indifference(?)
(This waffling could go on forever)…
You don’t think God would want to take ‘all my shit’?
You said it.
No, you said it. You called it ‘shit’.
Yeah, well, what else would you call it?
I am the one created…
I, the created.
What about it?
I ‘AM’ the bees knees.
God made me! Of course I should be proud!
Do you feel ‘superior’ somehow?
There is no other to feel superior over. So your query is irrelevant. I am priority!
Over lesser beings.
‘Lesser’? So you ‘are’ superior?!
No. I am ‘greater’ … not ‘superior’.
What does ‘greater’ mean?
It means…… I matter.
Yes, indeed you do. (the two voices now seem to merge)
I am God formed into matter!
G o d …………. M a t t e r…………
‘2’ things….. or one?
Matter is God’s marvelous mind slowed down to such a degree of form that it can be seen, experienced, felt and touched. It’s A THING. No longer a No-THING, but, a THING! Tangible. Seen. Felt. “Real”.
No more loneliness.
God’s (man’s?) dilemma of trying to control the thing which gives Hym a sense of purpose – a sense of company – of not being ALONE.
God grapples with ‘Himself’ (?!)
Does He? ‘Does’ God fear being ‘alone’ – and so, allows matter/created form to take control?
What else can created form do?
ALL AT PLAY. ALL CREATED FORM AT PLAY. ALL MINGLING. ALL BOUNCING OFF ONE ANOTHER. ALL GETTING KNOCKED ABOUT, CAUGHT, AND SPLATTERED. ALL JUST LIVING OUT/IN THE DREAM. ALL JUST HAVING A FIELD DAY OUT.
A FIELD DAY OUT.
And where is ‘God’ in all this? God…I AM is the passenger….the experiencer… the ONE AWARE of ALL THIS GOING ON (!?)
A Brilliant blazing THOUGHT. The HEAT OF a brilliant blazing Thought. The LIGHT born of the heat – born of the thought – born of the restlessness to have the thought in the first place.
MY THOUGHT CAUSED A THOUSAND STARS. MY THOUGHT BECAME SHAPES AND THINGS. I PLAYED WITH THESE THINGS. THEY SAW ME, AND I SAW THEM. AND THEY KNEW THEY WERE ME… AND I THEM. AND WE REJOICED, AND SPED LIGHT THROUGH THE UNIVERSE.
WHERE WERE WE GOING? WHERE WERE WE HEADING? WHERE ‘IS’ THERE TO HEAD IN YOUR OWN MIND? ANYWHERE, NO-WHERE, EVERYWHERE… ALL AT ONCE!
What becomes of US? Of ME, of YOU, of THEM? ‘WE’. ‘ME’. ‘I’ . Makes you chuckle when you REALIZE what ‘We’ are… ‘I’ AM .
Oh, we are all ‘different’. There are MANY of Us! (Some voice adds)
And so it seems. Is this the Great Deception?
There is At Once… ‘One’, and ‘MANY’.
OSCILLATING between Being The One, and being One of The Many.
When do the fractal offshoots end? When the GREAT BALL EYE sucks them all back in again?!
Fractal Offshoot Universes. Replica Minds Eyes of God. (!?)
What will CAUSE us to Return back to our Point of Origin? Is there a point of origin to return to?
How far UP or DOWN the rabbit hole can you travel? Does ‘God’ have limits?
Maybe It just travels out – all the way round – until it comes back in to meet Itself.
Once a uniform blanket of Wholeness/self realization occurs all through-out, a ‘blanket state’ will occur (!?) A multi-unanimous THOUGHT will cause a State of Rest/inaction/a ‘wind down’… a retreat. When All have been OVERCOME with the one unanimous thought….of ‘LOVE’ (!?) A Love that says….It is Okay to come home now….It is Okay to rest. You are received with open arms.
It is Easter Day, and I will share some music to lift the spirit and make it soar. Enjoy….
Charlotte Church singing Pie Jesu…