Set Your Mind On Your Maker

set_Your_Mind

As OCD symptoms tried to set in – yet again – this affirmation popped into my head, which I declared – then, moved forward to continue tasks uninterrupted.

Advertisements

Be Brave, Ancient Warrior

Be_Brave1

As OCD symptoms tried to set in – standing in front of the mirror – I looked myself in the eye, and defiantly pronounced: “Be brave, ancient warrior!” I bundled my fears together and took them with me…bravely into the future.

Wallow in The Mire…or Not

A diary entry to work out feelings of irritation turned into another relieving insight…

Please note: My writing is based on my own research; creative contemplation’s; and intuitive reasoning. Although I may write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present fact, or truth.

Diary Entry – Saturday DEC 16 2017

For some reason I am feeling agitated.  I feel like all the “bad stuff”- bad ‘feelings’- are concentrated.  I am feeling like a ‘hypocrite’ for offering Distant ‘Healing’ to others. Why am I feeling this way? (A voice of reason responded)…

Because, I tell you Tracy… not one day will go by when I don’t find a way to show you that I care about your welfare.  You drain and moan – all the while ‘knowing’, deep down in your heart, that I really do care. You need to show it to the world.  I can’t make you stop this moaning – I can show you the way… to mercy. I show you mercy – I give you mercy –please, give this to others.

I feel, ‘surely’ I am evil, and guilty, for such behavior –such irritable, angry behavior.

You will feel – always – what you feel. (Your experience will always be what you feel it is)

‘Am’ I guilty…guilty for wallowing in the mire? Guilty for indulging in irritable displays of emotion?  ‘Why’ do I have such a need to express the irritation? (Voice of reason continues to respond)…

Because you don’t see reason –you only feel emotion –and, your emotions are fueled by fire!  Redirect them into positive cause.  ‘Give’ and you will receive…  The amount you measure out is the amount you will be given back.

I need healing, God.  Will I…

You get what you give! (Answered before I could finish the question)

I was going to ask: Will ‘I’ receive healing by helping others in their healing?

Stand up straight – look up and feel the connection with your spirit –with God/Source.  Do it on purposeLift ‘yourself’ out of the mire!  Behold – I AM God.

(ego self begins speculating…’I’ am God!?)

No! Not the ‘ego’ – but, the “essence” – the “conscious awareness” – the consciousness ‘in me’….is “God”.  That One Blanket of Truth – that Blanket of ‘Awareness’ which covers/spans the universe…is ‘God’.

My individual self…my ‘body’ is part of that Truth?

It is an ‘expression’ of the activity of that truth –within Itself.

‘Is’ it that ‘Truth’, or ‘God’?  Is the ‘expression’ (i.e. the ‘results’ of creative thinking – the “things” created by thought –our bodies included)?  Are the “things” of creation, ‘automatons’ (i.e. soulless ‘machines’)?  (A voice cuts in)…

Created ‘with’ the Truth – ‘with’ Awareness – but, not sole dwelling places ‘for’ that Truth/God.

Does ‘awareness’/’God’ dwell in ALL things?

‘Sunspots’ (came to mind) –aspects of creation where God no longer dwells; for strife has taken over.

The “things” became trapped in the mechanics of the natural laws of cause and effect.  The natural laws of cause and effect keep “things” in motion; while God –who created them – amusingly sits back and watches the automaton circus play itself out.  But, God watches attentively – for, God Himself/Herself/Itself, is partly trapped in it –part of God’s Own Awareness is trapped in the dream circus of creation.  Sunspots i.e. holes in God’s awareness of Itself* [speculatative thought]

So, expecting ‘God’ to come down and “fix” everything is like waiting for yourself to come and get ‘yourself’ out of bed.  Only you can do this…willingly.

Oh yeah… but, there is this great thing called ‘equilibrium’; i.e. God’s natural barometer of Itself.  This will even things out –with or without God’s full Awareness.  Is the ultimate goal to find balance/harmony without the need to press the mechanical reset button?

By sheer Awareness, and, Understanding, of One’s Self – not caught in traps…’snares’ of guilt…desire…fear etc; but, by sheer knowledge of One’s Self to be the full Expression of Love (?!)

To delight in the expression of ‘loving joy’ and freedom of creation; with full Awareness of one’s self.

That, too, would get a bit boring after some eons of time. Then, would it be back to ‘strife’ and ‘chaos’, and ‘forgetfulness’ of one’s self…’again’; only to eventually rediscover it –in a moment of ecstatic joy –bursting forth – ‘again’ – as Infinite Creators of Our Universe (?!)

PS This is why I value journaling so much. I started his diary entry feeling burdened by feelings of agitation – and ended it feeling like I have regained some breathing space.  Amen.

Little_Human1
Little Human

Following on from yesterday’s diary entry – as the spirit of strife (and guilt) continued to dig its claws into me – triggered by a sense of remorse for past actions…

Sunday December 17 2017

It ‘happened’.  I cannot wallow in the mire for ever. I could if I choose to, though.  The strife happened!  I cannot change that fact; though, I can change the thoughts surrounding that memory.

Self-condemnation for Eternity?

‘God’…do You want me to condemn myself for ‘eternity’? (Is this ‘God’, asking ‘God’, what ‘God’ would do!?)  Or, is it the ‘flesh Being’ condemning itself? God dwells within this, though. God dwells in the flesh Being.

Is God’s Awareness trapped’ – ‘deformed’‘distorted’, ‘by’ the flesh Being (i.e. by “us”)?

Can God’s Awareness ‘be’ distorted?  It is ‘God’ after all (!?)

> The resonant field of fear is SO STRONG on Earth, that it keeps part of God’s Awareness held/trapped within it (!?)

Am I to be punished for upsetting my mum? (I did so, because ‘she’ upset ‘me’…(ego cries out)!

Can’ I forgive myself? ‘Will’ I? Willing – Will ‘I’ forgive ‘me’? Clouds ‘cloud’ my thinking – make it hard to see, and understand. Will it always be this way?

“STRIFE ON FIRE, KEEPS US BOGGED IN THE MIRE”.

Addicted to strife, are we? Addicted to anger? “Why”?

…Allows us to ‘let off steam’! Tension building up stresses us.

“Why” so much ‘tension’?

Anger over our ‘predicament’…angry at someone ELSE for ‘OUR’ predicament?

Anger at someone ‘else’, is this the only ‘way’ we know how to not face “the blame”!??

The ‘blame’ for THE WAY THINGS ARE.

Hell! Who would ‘want’ to take the blame? Kerfuffle! We are in our own Kerfuffle! ‘Surely’ there is a “God” ‘up there’, who is responsible for ALL THIS – who we can ‘blame’!?

Aargh!! (Frustration that WE should finally realize)…“We” are the Creators – the Doers – the Movers – and Shakers! “We” are responsible for it all.

…It “All”?

“We” are all the ONE Being, (appearing to be) divided into MANY parts. The Blanket “exploded”- still all pieces of the ONE Blanket!

The Consciousness – the Awareness – the holographic ‘pieces’ – of the One Whole Being…we are!  ‘Too’ enthusiastic?  Tell me it’s not true.  Yes, ‘others’ have said it – I am not making out like ‘I’ am the discoverer of it. I am one of the parts ‘realizing’ it!  If one can –all must be able to.  Are you ‘tuned in’ to receive it?

Ask, and you shall receive;

Seek, and you fill find;

Knock, and the door will be opened to you.

14a
Potential new thought

 

 

 

 

 

Keys To ‘Ascend’

 

openToLove

This affirmation came to me when I was finding it hard to feel ‘love’ for a person who challenges me. Realizing that holding ‘grudges’ will only set me back – keep me ‘bound’ in the vicious cycle of the ‘eye for an eye’ law of the natural world – I decided I need to radically embrace this person whom I feel challenged by.

Defying your natural instinct to react badly to someone who may be “pushing your buttons” is really a ‘radical’ thing to do; but, once you do it – and get yourself off the vicious cycle – you might find that you will be glad you did. I was.

If we were to undergo a ‘rapture’ – or, an event which would determine our spiritual destiny – holding on to grudges; having ill thoughts towards another; being unforgiving towards others AND self; where would that leave us? In what state of being…state of ‘awareness’, will we end up?  The light “freedom” of lovinghealing…’forgiveness’ – or, the heavyburdened…’halls of hell’ (being a state of mind)?

I know what I would prefer; but, will I be willing to let go of all the crap … I should!

*’Sister’ and ‘brother’ refers to ALL OTHER FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS – not only ‘blood’ relatives.