If Love Is All There Is

A night searching the net for information on biblical rapture, led me to some sites which spoke of times of tribulation – which tended to be more fear inducing than anything else. Within this fear I began to ponder, and search for answers within myself. This diary entry reflects some of my thoughts…

Diary entry: January 12, 2018

Don’t see it as something to fear – see it as a natural progression of events in an un-holy land – a land where we have allowed ourselves to be controlled by fear; doubt; and, uncertainty – rather than by love.

Know it for what it is; i.e. symptoms of a sick world – outcomes of fear-based living; not as a force which has power ‘over’ me/us, but, rather – a thing which exists ‘because’ of us – because of our reasoning and doubt. Can you stop a scab from forming on a wounded knee? Can you stop mucus forming from an infected throat? Horrible ‘symptoms’ are signs the body is cleansing itself. ‘Must’ they come to pass? (we dread). We – who are more than we know – can will ourselves to experience anything we desire – we are the dreamers of dreams – we can ‘change the reel’ of any picture we are viewing. How? By changing it…switching stations! Switch our station to God/Love – and we instantly ‘tune-in’ to that – and will know – and see – only that.

Fear of ‘something else’ harming us, will dissolve. Understanding; love; and compassion will set in, and throw off our old shackles of victim-hood. The ‘genie in the bottle’ really does grant us our wishes; the ‘genie’ of God’s Great Morpheus Wonder, responds to our very wishes and desires. Desire to be at one (atoned), and to know only one – one truth – that there ‘is’ no ‘other’… ultimately. Amen

AFFIRMATION:

If ever faced with something seemingly threatening, which reduces you to fear – know and declare this…

Love Is All I Know – I Know Only Love

AFTERTHOUGHT

‘Everything’ is possible. You will see whatever you are ‘tuned-in’ to. Every conceivable thought exists – as a thing – in a thought form factory – ready to be shipped in a three-dimensional form – once enough human desire and emotion has been mixed into the ingredients. You will (only ever) see what you are tuned-in to; whatever ‘station’ you are tuned into, is the program you are going to see. What does this ‘mean’? E.g. If you are tuned-in to see, or expect, only hatred; grief; anger fueling injustice – then, you will attract/pick up all those types of frequencies/things/situations/people from the environment around you. You will see only these things – if it is only these things you are tuned-in to – or expect – ‘to’ see from life. What do you ‘want’ to see?

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DISCLAIMER

Please note: My writing is based on my own research; creative contemplation; and intuitive reasoning. Although I may write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present fact, or truth.

 

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2018 – Acknowledge, and Resolve Opposing Forces

In terms of numerology, 2018 represents an 11/2 year, (2+0+1+8 = 11; 1+1 = 2) and, is also my personal 2 year. This way I feel somewhat in tune with the collective.

For the last few weeks I have been seeing 2’s quite often; and on this New Year’s morning, I began contemplating the two opposing sides of my personality – the “good”, and, the “bad”. I sensed that this year would be a year of resolving this conflict – or, at least coming to terms with it.

Diary entry: January 1, 2018

Two equally important sides – make up one significant whole.

No longer can I reject one, or the other. Both sides must be acknowledged. I cannot run away from my shadow. Why do I have a shadow? Because the illusion of a single, separate form makes it so.

When I am ‘the light’, I have no shadows; but, when I am a ‘separate entity’ – in a ‘body’ – I have a shadow! So, do I be the light, or, do I be the body?

(Enters a voice of reason)… I Am Both!

If I am both – I am neither one, nor the other! If I am ‘All’ of it…I cannot only be one ‘part’ of it.

(Voice of doubt responds) …Okay, the part of me that ‘does’ seem separate – with ‘shadow’ – i.e. my body… (Sentence interrupted by the voice of reason)…

There is only one body! See past the illusion – and you will see Me! (Think of an amoeba). Only One body – trying to work itself through the illusion!

Go in Grace, and wonder… Who I am.

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…An end to separateness! I can live with that!

Wallow in The Mire…or Not

A diary entry to work out feelings of irritation turned into another relieving insight…

Please note: My writing is based on my own research; creative contemplation’s; and intuitive reasoning. Although I may write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present fact, or truth.

Diary Entry – Saturday DEC 16 2017

For some reason I am feeling agitated.  I feel like all the “bad stuff”- bad ‘feelings’- are concentrated.  I am feeling like a ‘hypocrite’ for offering Distant ‘Healing’ to others. Why am I feeling this way? (A voice of reason responded)…

Because, I tell you Tracy… not one day will go by when I don’t find a way to show you that I care about your welfare.  You drain and moan – all the while ‘knowing’, deep down in your heart, that I really do care. You need to show it to the world.  I can’t make you stop this moaning – I can show you the way… to mercy. I show you mercy – I give you mercy –please, give this to others.

I feel, ‘surely’ I am evil, and guilty, for such behavior –such irritable, angry behavior.

You will feel – always – what you feel. (Your experience will always be what you feel it is)

‘Am’ I guilty…guilty for wallowing in the mire? Guilty for indulging in irritable displays of emotion?  ‘Why’ do I have such a need to express the irritation? (Voice of reason continues to respond)…

Because you don’t see reason –you only feel emotion –and, your emotions are fueled by fire!  Redirect them into positive cause.  ‘Give’ and you will receive…  The amount you measure out is the amount you will be given back.

I need healing, God.  Will I…

You get what you give! (Answered before I could finish the question)

I was going to ask: Will ‘I’ receive healing by helping others in their healing?

Stand up straight – look up and feel the connection with your spirit –with God/Source.  Do it on purposeLift ‘yourself’ out of the mire!  Behold – I AM God.

(ego self begins speculating…’I’ am God!?)

No! Not the ‘ego’ – but, the “essence” – the “conscious awareness” – the consciousness ‘in me’….is “God”.  That One Blanket of Truth – that Blanket of ‘Awareness’ which covers/spans the universe…is ‘God’.

My individual self…my ‘body’ is part of that Truth?

It is an ‘expression’ of the activity of that truth –within Itself.

‘Is’ it that ‘Truth’, or ‘God’?  Is the ‘expression’ (i.e. the ‘results’ of creative thinking – the “things” created by thought –our bodies included)?  Are the “things” of creation, ‘automatons’ (i.e. soulless ‘machines’)?  (A voice cuts in)…

Created ‘with’ the Truth – ‘with’ Awareness – but, not sole dwelling places ‘for’ that Truth/God.

Does ‘awareness’/’God’ dwell in ALL things?

‘Sunspots’ (came to mind) –aspects of creation where God no longer dwells; for strife has taken over.

The “things” became trapped in the mechanics of the natural laws of cause and effect.  The natural laws of cause and effect keep “things” in motion; while God –who created them – amusingly sits back and watches the automaton circus play itself out.  But, God watches attentively – for, God Himself/Herself/Itself, is partly trapped in it –part of God’s Own Awareness is trapped in the dream circus of creation.  Sunspots i.e. holes in God’s awareness of Itself* [speculatative thought]

So, expecting ‘God’ to come down and “fix” everything is like waiting for yourself to come and get ‘yourself’ out of bed.  Only you can do this…willingly.

Oh yeah… but, there is this great thing called ‘equilibrium’; i.e. God’s natural barometer of Itself.  This will even things out –with or without God’s full Awareness.  Is the ultimate goal to find balance/harmony without the need to press the mechanical reset button?

By sheer Awareness, and, Understanding, of One’s Self – not caught in traps…’snares’ of guilt…desire…fear etc; but, by sheer knowledge of One’s Self to be the full Expression of Love (?!)

To delight in the expression of ‘loving joy’ and freedom of creation; with full Awareness of one’s self.

That, too, would get a bit boring after some eons of time. Then, would it be back to ‘strife’ and ‘chaos’, and ‘forgetfulness’ of one’s self…’again’; only to eventually rediscover it –in a moment of ecstatic joy –bursting forth – ‘again’ – as Infinite Creators of Our Universe (?!)

PS This is why I value journaling so much. I started his diary entry feeling burdened by feelings of agitation – and ended it feeling like I have regained some breathing space.  Amen.

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Following on from yesterday’s diary entry – as the spirit of strife (and guilt) continued to dig its claws into me – triggered by a sense of remorse for past actions…

Sunday December 17 2017

It ‘happened’.  I cannot wallow in the mire for ever. I could if I choose to, though.  The strife happened!  I cannot change that fact; though, I can change the thoughts surrounding that memory.

Self-condemnation for Eternity?

‘God’…do You want me to condemn myself for ‘eternity’? (Is this ‘God’, asking ‘God’, what ‘God’ would do!?)  Or, is it the ‘flesh Being’ condemning itself? God dwells within this, though. God dwells in the flesh Being.

Is God’s Awareness trapped’ – ‘deformed’‘distorted’, ‘by’ the flesh Being (i.e. by “us”)?

Can God’s Awareness ‘be’ distorted?  It is ‘God’ after all (!?)

> The resonant field of fear is SO STRONG on Earth, that it keeps part of God’s Awareness held/trapped within it (!?)

Am I to be punished for upsetting my mum? (I did so, because ‘she’ upset ‘me’…(ego cries out)!

Can’ I forgive myself? ‘Will’ I? Willing – Will ‘I’ forgive ‘me’? Clouds ‘cloud’ my thinking – make it hard to see, and understand. Will it always be this way?

“STRIFE ON FIRE, KEEPS US BOGGED IN THE MIRE”.

Addicted to strife, are we? Addicted to anger? “Why”?

…Allows us to ‘let off steam’! Tension building up stresses us.

“Why” so much ‘tension’?

Anger over our ‘predicament’…angry at someone ELSE for ‘OUR’ predicament?

Anger at someone ‘else’, is this the only ‘way’ we know how to not face “the blame”!??

The ‘blame’ for THE WAY THINGS ARE.

Hell! Who would ‘want’ to take the blame? Kerfuffle! We are in our own Kerfuffle! ‘Surely’ there is a “God” ‘up there’, who is responsible for ALL THIS – who we can ‘blame’!?

Aargh!! (Frustration that WE should finally realize)…“We” are the Creators – the Doers – the Movers – and Shakers! “We” are responsible for it all.

…It “All”?

“We” are all the ONE Being, (appearing to be) divided into MANY parts. The Blanket “exploded”- still all pieces of the ONE Blanket!

The Consciousness – the Awareness – the holographic ‘pieces’ – of the One Whole Being…we are!  ‘Too’ enthusiastic?  Tell me it’s not true.  Yes, ‘others’ have said it – I am not making out like ‘I’ am the discoverer of it. I am one of the parts ‘realizing’ it!  If one can –all must be able to.  Are you ‘tuned in’ to receive it?

Ask, and you shall receive;

Seek, and you fill find;

Knock, and the door will be opened to you.

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Loving All, Judging Nothing

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The challenge – and gift – of the Tesla Metamorphosis practitioner is to judge nothing; and to extend their loving heart to all – even the most unlovable (in self AND others). Here is where the radical shift in consciousness can take place – which raises our consciousness – causing us to take on a ‘higher frequency’, or – ‘state of consciousness’.

The lightness of being that can be felt when we choose to do this, is remarkably liberating.

A voice of doubt queries…

Q. How could I forgive myself for all the wrongs I have committed? I need to be punished –I don’t deserve the privilege of not having to judge myself!?

Here is where we stay ‘stuck’.  Open your eyes!  See the cause of things; know there is rhyme and reason to things. Don’t take on the ‘privilege’ of being ‘solely responsible’ for all the “bad stuff”. You are not a sole perpetrator – you are a participant – and have only ever acted from a natural instinct and ‘drive’ to do so.

Are you going to blame yourself for having been an unconscious player?  When you don’t realise the karmic wheel–law of cause and effect–you are stuck on – well, you continue the motions and cycles…the ‘eye for an eye’ thing. But, when you finally see, and realise, this cycle you are trapped in, you begin to imagine a way out.

One great teacher who wanted us to see this was J.C.  ‘Turning the other cheek’ was not an impractical ‘suggestion’ – it was an instruction on how to negate this perpetuating karmic cycle; how to neutralise it affects.

Okay, back to the part about forgiving self.  Once you realise the cycle you have been trapped in, you can slowly – or quickly – begin to develop mercy for yourself.  Recognizing your own mishaps of judgment and action – in others – can allow you to begin having mercy for others.  You will be able to give mercy; and, you know the sayingwhat you give you shall receive.

Q. Is there ‘sin’ and punishment in ‘knowing’ these things but not ‘acting’ on them? i.e. By ‘continuing’ to act badly, we compound our ability to ‘forgive’ ourselves?

Just know – this is a very tough and stubborn skin we’re trying to shed – our old habits.  So, please, do not put yourself down for slipping up!  Instead, know this is a hard task and expect to occasionally fall backwards.  But, do persevere; ‘Carry your cross’; and, keep that head pointed in the direction you want to go.

Afterthought:

When tempted to become angry, for example – rather than slipping into the whole drama and fiasco of it (and ultimate guilt), reason with yourself –ask: ‘why’ am I feeling angry?  Bring awareness to the situation, remembering it is a karmic response…an ‘effect’ of a cause – an ‘equal and opposite’ reaction to a thing.  ‘Light’ on the situation allows you navigate through it.  You decide – ‘O.k.’…. Where ‘do’ I want to go with this? – Actually, I don’t want to be angry…so, I will let it go.

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Disclaimer:

Please note that my writing is based on my own research, creative contemplation’s, and, intuitive understanding. I write with a certain conviction which often bemuses me – I wonder ‘where’ these insights come from, and, is there any merit to them. I do not claim to know or present “fact” or “truth”.

Portions of The Creator

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The aim is to establish liberation from the flesh; for Good Will and order to rein. Good Will meaning: no-one sees ‘evil’; no one ‘judges’or ‘blames’. All can come in and out of experience at will. Then, natural, harmonizing order can be maintained. All will ‘sense’ the balance and act in accordance…for, all will be equal, and will Love the “other”.

(I received this insight in the middle of the night after suddenly waking up. I seemed to be in silent conversation with a ‘voice of reason’ – the source of which I am unsure of. So, please, read with a ‘grain of salt’!)

The Snare of Creation

There is such sweetness to be savoured in the world; yet, we remain here bound by stuckOnCreationLOWstrife;  failing to recognize the immense ‘gift’ we have: to experience the wondrous and beautiful creation.

We were meant to be able to come in and out of incarnation – at will – for the purpose of experiencing the beauty of the creation we…our core beings…had made. Yet, we became entrapped in it…’snared’ by it…consumed completely by the ‘Laws’ of it. Now ‘stuck’ in it, we tend to focus on the burden of it, not really realizing there ‘is’ a way out of it. ‘How’? By, following the example…‘The Way’…set for us by Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

Take away all the religious associations, and see solely the Man…the ‘Spirit Made Flesh’; and hear Him…seek to know Him…for He is The “Pattern”*…The Way-showerwho came to be an example…to show us how to escape the physical Laws of cause and effect which keep us bound in cycles of karma.  The story of ’Turning the other cheek’ when someone hits you, was not about being ‘nice’ or ‘good’, it was practical advice about how to neutralize this karmic response…the natural ‘eye for an eye’ response. Consciously choosing not to hit the person back, but rather, defying the spirit of strife–halting it in tracks–’turning the other cheek’, and, stopping this automatic response. Suddenly you can become a “conscious dweller” knowing ‘how’ you become stuck in the ‘Tit-for-tat’ law of nature; soon realizing you don’t have to be part of it. [*See readings of Edgar Cayce]

Rather than the physical laws ruling you, suddenly, like J.C, you start to become the ruler of it.  Remember what Jesus said….’Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me. If not, believe because of the things I do. I am telling you the truth: whoever believes in me will do what I do—yes, he will do even greater things’….. [John 14 11-12]

Don’t just take ‘my’ word for it!

Disclaimer: Please note that what I write is based on my own research; creative contemplation’s; and, intuitive level of understanding. While I seem to write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present “fact” or “truth”.

 

Loved Ones Keep Us Earth Bound

To break away from the things we most cherish, the things which keep us bound in flesh, to the earth – to disown the illusion. Jesus said….’Anyone who loves there father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me’… [Matthew 10:37]

By remaining attached to the things we love, we too, keep ‘them’ earth bound. Letting our loved ones ‘go’ may be the greatest gift we could ever give them. The fear of a loss of identity makes this a (seemingly) very hard thing to do. This ‘designer garment’…this ‘cloak’, hides our ‘true’ identity. This ‘thing’ that gets discarded at the end of life – and, we remain so fixed on it…of the memory of it; the feel of it; the touch of it – it is very real to us – yet, it goes to dust; and we continue to try to grasp it…this ‘dust’.

Who are our ‘loved ones’…the ‘cloaks’; the ‘garments’; or, the one wearing the garment – the ‘Spirit’ / the ‘Awareness’ / the Conscious Dweller? Who ‘is’ Mum? Which part of Mum am I so attached to? ….(a spirit of remorse/strife takes over)….

……I am attached by all my remorse….of all the unkind words spoken in anger; the regret; the fear I have driven her away…driven away the…… (tiering of ‘explanations’) ….”Blah, blah, blah, blah!”….. Spiralling into regret and reason once again?! (negative voice proclaims)

‘Yes’! (positive voice defies)…For ‘in’ it I find reason…I see reason…I am able to ‘understand’ and accept what has happened, and MOVE ON! So, ‘you’ can wallow all you want!  I’m Up and Out of here!  (Is this me ‘abandoning’ part of myself? I suddenly imagine a screaming child throwing a tantrum in a shopping centre. The parent would be tempted, but would not abandon the child). So, no! …I cannot. I must let it ‘be’). You have every right to think what you want; I will not abandon you for it; I will let you be, but…watch ‘me’ play.

Soon, we will forget that we had any differences, and, in letting our guards down, we will become one. And the fiery furnace shall burn away all the remnants of our frictions; and, once again, we will be given a ‘clean slate’ ready to be written on….again. Ghostly memories remain of our past (?) Where ‘do’ all the ashes go….the ‘dust’…particles floating through our Universe; absorbing light, or, casting shadows? Singed to a vapour…a carbon vapour (?) –building matter for future worlds…future ‘playgrounds’.

Disclaimer: Everything I write comes from my own voice of reason, speaking to me, telling me ‘how it is’. I share this, not because I claim it as any type of “truth”, but, because, as it helps ‘me’ through my own trials, maybe it can help someone else too.

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Shift the strife and ‘raise your vibration’

Strife, it seems, is inevitable. Perhaps the only way to overcome it is to accept it is there…in us. We perpetuate it; we are burdened by it; we disown it in ourselves…(who wants to be the ‘villain’ anyway?!) I, personally, am coming to terms with it within myself. The constant ‘fear led’ angry reactions – which keep me bound in cycles of fear; anger; guilt; and regret – only lead to self-imposed imprisonment, where I/we deny any ‘good’ things coming our way – we don’t deserve them after all!

I am beginning to see a way ‘out’ of this cycle. Through unconditional love and acceptance of all things just as they are. No, I don’t mean being complacent; I mean, judging not; and, purely by accepting that it is this way for a reason; and, we are caught in a cause and effect experience…a ‘tit-for-tat’ automatic responsive  experience.

Now, when strife arises, I am beginning to stop myself in my tracks, and simply ‘notice’ where I am feeling it in my body, or, ’field of awareness’. I notice it feels low and heavy; I notice where it ‘wants to take me’ – to an angry outburst. Well, I have news for it! I am choosing a new way. By deciding not to ‘react’, and instead, raising my awareness, on purpose, to the area just above my head; the area where my thoughts are ‘closer to God’.

(My voice of reason speaking to me this morning)…

Moving forward in Love is…(might be)…the only way out; out of the strife; the ‘snare’ of the strife.

Acceptance of the strife is the necessary ingredient in relinquishing it (?!) Or…

Acceptance that there ‘is’ strife, is the key! (Yes! That feels better).

Knowing there ‘is’ strife, and understanding that it ‘will’ occasionally pop up; but, when it does, recognizing it for what it is, and shutting down the automatic responses in favour of an all-embracing loving ‘awareness’ of it. Not judging it as ‘good’ or ‘bad’…it ‘is’ what it ‘is’…nothing more, nothing less.

This attitude/response to strife will change the vibrational frequency of your being, giving you a lightness where your heart soon opens up and begins spreading out in all directions – where once you would retract into a hardened ball of fear.  This spreading out of your heart ‘wings’ will begin to affect others, who may once have only known one response to strife…that of judging; blame; anger; and shrinking fear.  As more bodies pick up this new (‘rediscovered’) frequency (“vibe”), a greater illumination/’lightness’ of being will being to occur.

Practice this! ‘Expect’ to “fall off the bike” every now and then while learning this new ‘thing’, but, get back on the bike, as would a child, and learn how to ride it.

When strife is overtaking you, try this simple exercise…

  1. Acknowledge the feeling, without judging it or yourself; understanding that there is a reason for it. E.g. “Ok, I am feeling anger right now”.
  2. Accept that strife ‘does’ exist, but, I can now ‘choose’ how to respond to it.
  3. Notice ‘where’ in your body, or awareness, you are feeling this. E.g. a trembling gut; quivering hands; pulsing veins; etc.
  4. Now, rather than letting yourself fall into the “same old trap” of strife/anger reactions, simply ‘decide’ not to, and draw your awareness upwards…towards ‘God’…physically standing up straight with your face, and mind, looking ‘up’. This immediately ‘lightens’ you, causing your mind to begin vibrating at the level of crown chakra – a place where God can more easily reach you, because you are choosing to meet Him there.

Sound too simple? Perhaps “raising our vibration/awareness/frequency” is simply a matter of choosing to.

Closing thought:

The strife you can forgive in others is the strife you are willing to forgive in yourself.

Re: ‘Lessons to Self’

Everything I write comes from my own voice of reason, speaking to me, telling me ‘how it is’. I share this, not because I claim it as any type of “truth”, but, because, as it helps ‘me’ through my own trials, maybe it can help someone else too.

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