I Am The Awareness of God: A philosophical musing

 

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I am the awareness (an aspect of) God Almighty, trapped within a corporal beam of light.

 

I woke this morning with the above insight, but went on to realize – alternatively – that, rather than being “trapped” in light, I/We are trapped within/by a thought God is having about Himself/Itself! “I/We” being ‘aspects’ of God’s own Awareness.

By corporal beam of light, I mean: light as being a created “thing” in which our awareness is trapped in/associating itself with. “Light”…”Sol”… our “Soul” is the light our awareness (i.e. our individualized portion of the Creators’ own Awareness) is trapped in.

Thought creates bursts of heat/light

Light is the by-product of God thinking thoughts about Himself/Itself

…So, saying we are “trapped” in the light, should/could really say: We (God’s Awareness) are trapped within a ‘thought’ about ourselves… or rather, ‘God’ is trapped within a thought about Himself.

When all thoughts retire;

When they have run their course;

Out will be put the fire;

And into cold retraction…

They shall reverse.

No more thoughts… no more ‘heat’ / ‘light’ / ‘things’ / ‘forms’. A cooling down period where all once matter, will fizzle and retract in onto Itself.

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Q. Will ‘Awareness’ be lost?

‘Being’-ness will replace activity. Stillquietsilent awareness of just ‘being‘.  Until, simple ‘being-ness’ becomes over emphasised…over experienced, and restlessness sets in. Then…

Bang’… ‘Pow’… ‘Pop’… ‘Slam’– Wake Up! It’s party time… again!

(Reason enquires)…. If We – as pure, ageless Awareness – have countless millennia/eons, then what is the great rush to work it all out? (I think of the desperate urge to ‘save souls’ as preached by the Church). What great ‘danger’ is there if we don’t ‘realise’ Who and What we are before the worlds/the Mind collapses back into Itself?

Not ‘knowing’… ‘Ignorance’ ?

When we don’t know Who/What we are, we will continue to be subjected to the same old fates and misfortunes – as in all previous existences/incarnations (?!)

Cycles of knowing.

Q. Jesus, ‘why’ is it so important we overcome ourselves/our flesh bodies, along with all its problems?

(This is the answer that came to me)….

You said it before… To realise you are God. Until you realise this your experience of living will be subject to fate. Until you realise this you will not be the spirit of joy, love, and adventure you seek to be. Knowing Who you are Will Set You Free – free to roam and play in this Grand Old Adventure of life. Amen

Thanks J.C.   

A creative contemplation of God’s first Word.

(Here I interchange the words Thinker, Observer, *Him, *He, It, to describe ‘God’… the Great Unknown. “He” not meaning male – but, the base aspect of life – neither male nor female).

A thought uttered, becomes a word.

How does Spirit ‘utter’ a thought?

By ‘imagining’.

The restless movement of Mind beginning to wake again after a long nights sleep.

A ‘spark’ of thought creates a small burst of light. This small burst of light – observed by the Great Unknown – gives rise to another thought… ”What was that?”… the Thinker thought,… and yet another small burst of light occurs, until ‘many’ bursts of light form a “thing”. A ‘form’ begins to appear from the small bursts of light grouping together. And, the Thinker responds joyfully by observing the things – and the things become more solid, the more the Observer observes them, and holds them in Its mind.

The Thinker soaks in/absorbs the site that It sees, and vibrations set in, leading to sounds, i.e. reflections of light bouncing off the Observers observations of the things It sees.

All these “things” floating about in the air of the Observer’s Awareness…interact with Him. He sees them, and He responds – ”Ah”, it is Good”.

What causes the ‘utterance’? Or rather, what ‘is’ an utterance?

A response to a thing.

  1. Light 2. Sound

The Observer saw the things being created by the small bursts of light.

What caused the vibrations?

The “things” re-sounding/bouncing off each other (!?)

The first vibrations were caused by the “things” that were created by the first small bursts of light, bouncing off one another.

It must have been a delight to see… to witness.  And God knew It Was Good.

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Please note: My writing is based on my own research, creative contemplation, and intuitive reasoning. Although I may write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present fact, or truth.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Closer We Move Towards God, The Stronger Gets The Stronghold of The Flesh

I approach my diary often  in times of great need, in order to work out feelings and emotions which are very difficult to live with. I realise things can and often will seem to get a whole lot worse before they begin to get better. Once we begin to move away from the rules of the flesh, along with its needs and desires, and begin to move closer to God/Source – the spirit of the flesh (the part of us most closely associated/identifying with our earthly bodies, will put up a fight. It will kick and scream; yet, the Way Shower (Jesus Christ/ Yeshua Ben Yoseph) came to show us ‘how’ to overcome this trap.

(Diary entry):

A struggle with bitterness. Do we become ‘more’ bitter the closer we start to move towards God? The flesh knows we are going, so it strengthens its hold on us?
(“Read Revelation (chapter) 12”… I heard a voice say).

Notes from Revelation 12:

And the devil is filled with rage, for he knows he has only a short time left.
The mark of the beast is the beast’s name, or the number which stands for the name… 666.

My response/insight/creative abstract ramblings:

A number is a vibration of units. Number ‘6’ in Chaldean-Hebrew Kabala numerology represents ‘love’…’earthly’ love? I wonder how the number ‘6’ can represent the devil.
(Do the sixes represent ‘earthly’ love on the three levels of body, mind, and spirit? I think about the ‘7’ churches (mentioned in Revelation). The 7th church equals the ‘Crown chakra’….our connection to Source/God? Does the ‘6-6-6’ represent our body/mind/state of soul without our connection to God?

The number (of the beast) stands for a man’s name. My name…‘Tracy’…ie my ‘identity’… my ‘marked’ identity, in the world.

The meaning of a number…

The number stands for a name…the number of the beast.

The 666 is the Body, Mind, and Spirit disconnected from God?

Q. What is the Mark of the beast? That which denotes a separation from God (a voice repeated in my head).

At this point in my diary entry I suddenly swayed off track, recalling a thought I have often pondered: Really, you must wonder… What ‘does’ one do with Eternity?

Getting to know our self…. Full Awareness of What We are. What the hell ‘are’ we? ‘Really’?

I was wondering last night in bed: What ‘is’ life? (Now I remember my strained thoughts as a child, where I would sit and try to imagine ‘nothing’ existing. It seemed impossible). I just ‘am’. We… (‘we’?)… ‘We’ just are! What the hell? Think about it. What – in holy mackerel ‘are’ we? Or rather…What am ‘I’? This answer came: We are just What I Am! Sh#%! Mind blowing.

A lotus flower on a pond – opening and closing – breathing IN…. and OUT…always.
Is there ever a time when we don’t exist? Oh yes…the big ‘sleep’…the ‘shutdown’… the ‘Mall is closed’. We retreat back into our sacks… we become no more. Do we wake ‘again’?

An over abundance of sleep causes a tiny movement, of restlessness, and again we begin to wake up. Holy mackerel. With each new waking – a reaching for a new height – a new level of experience. What the hell… Just enjoy it!

All the shits and its;
All the cribs and crabs;
All the bits and bobs.

This is our mishmash hole of (never-ending?) creative fluctuations, joys, and wonders.
And the big sleeps – in between it all – make it all bearable and surprisingly ‘new’ each time it all begins again.

Do your head in wondering. Do our head in wondering – what this ‘life’ is about.

(The following is a sort of Soul Communication dialogue between myself and….?)

Q. God, what ‘is’ life? (‘Movement by thought equalling heat’!?).

Q. What ‘are’ we? (By-product of ‘movement of thought equalling heat’!?)

Okay… Q. What is ‘God’? (A semi permanent state of fluctuating vibration!?)

Q. What is “fluctuating vibration”? (Any movement of thought through time and space).

Q. What is ‘thought’? (Any dream made real!?)

Q. What is a dream? (Made by a motion of space!?)

Q. What is a motion of (in) space? (You are having one right now!)

Q. What am ‘I’ to have a motion in space? (I am the creative dreamer!)

Q. Where did I come from? (My mother’s womb!)

Q. Who is my mother? (The demiurge of offspring!?)

Q. What is the demiurge of offspring? (The father of life!?)

Q. What is the father of life? (That which is!)

Q. What is ‘that which is’? (Hitherto!)

Can I not be, if I am not ‘Am’ (?)!

Nonsense! Diddle-swash! Makeba! Zoom! Flip-flop freedom hopper. Catch me if you can! Zip!  I’m gone… not there. Trying to catch me is like trying to catch the wind, or, compress electricity. Can you do it? Na!

Only those as little children can enter the kingdom of heaven. (Read that!)

Post thought…

“Oh, there must be some sinister side controller putting these thoughts into my (our) heads”?  That is our trouble. Paranoia. “Something, or someone is controlling us – manipulating us”, we might think. So, we fester in tormented paranoia; we drink the juice of the drink we have concocted for ourselves….which is? I don’t know. You tell me!

The tantrums will pass and we’ll get to know ourselves better…or not.

The Lord your God is One!

…that means ‘I’ am one. You, We, All, are One. One big mind of God – thinking thoughts for it self. Whatever we think, is.

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The Snare of Creation

There is such sweetness to be savoured in the world; yet, we remain here bound by stuckOnCreationLOWstrife;  failing to recognize the immense ‘gift’ we have: to experience the wondrous and beautiful creation.

We were meant to be able to come in and out of incarnation – at will – for the purpose of experiencing the beauty of the creation we…our core beings…had made. Yet, we became entrapped in it…’snared’ by it…consumed completely by the ‘Laws’ of it. Now ‘stuck’ in it, we tend to focus on the burden of it, not really realizing there ‘is’ a way out of it. ‘How’? By, following the example…‘The Way’…set for us by Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

Take away all the religious associations, and see solely the Man…the ‘Spirit Made Flesh’; and hear Him…seek to know Him…for He is The “Pattern”*…The Way-showerwho came to be an example…to show us how to escape the physical Laws of cause and effect which keep us bound in cycles of karma.  The story of ’Turning the other cheek’ when someone hits you, was not about being ‘nice’ or ‘good’, it was practical advice about how to neutralize this karmic response…the natural ‘eye for an eye’ response. Consciously choosing not to hit the person back, but rather, defying the spirit of strife–halting it in tracks–’turning the other cheek’, and, stopping this automatic response. Suddenly you can become a “conscious dweller” knowing ‘how’ you become stuck in the ‘Tit-for-tat’ law of nature; soon realizing you don’t have to be part of it. [*See readings of Edgar Cayce]

Rather than the physical laws ruling you, suddenly, like J.C, you start to become the ruler of it.  Remember what Jesus said….’Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me. If not, believe because of the things I do. I am telling you the truth: whoever believes in me will do what I do—yes, he will do even greater things’….. [John 14 11-12]

Don’t just take ‘my’ word for it!

Disclaimer: Please note that what I write is based on my own research; creative contemplation’s; and, intuitive level of understanding. While I seem to write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present “fact” or “truth”.