[Please note: The following is based on my own intuitive insights and investigations. I make no claim to know or present “fact” or “truth”. Please read at your own discretion.]
A diary entry contemplating fear, evil, and our Earthly predicament, turned into a (possible) soul communication between a voice of reason and, a spirit of evil…
Joy of forgiving; no longer needing to hold onto the ‘reason’…the ‘strife’. No longer needing to hold onto…or…finally able to forgive self… through compassion?
“Strife is fun!” (a voice says). Living in the creation ‘we’ created – playing too long in it – forgetting where we come from, or really belong… Where do I/we really belong? (In the heart of my mother’s bosom?)… Where do we really belong? …Right here: where we have always been (?!)
Is there really disharmony in the universe ‘because’ of us?
Is there really disharmony in the universe because of us?
There is strife and unrest.
Is this strife and unrest ‘bad’ or ’wrong’?
Nothing is wrong. Everything is right as it should be…considering all it has been.
Everything Is Everything It Is. Everything Is what It Is…’is’ … ‘si’ (‘Yes’)… Everything is valid…validated.
Many eyes looking…what are they seeing?
What is ‘evil’?
Desire for what?
Revenge for what?
For the mistaken belief that we separated ourselves from our God. The fear of the unknown – unknowable
The unknown within – deep within
Your heart, mind and soul
What is my heart, mind, and soul?
God – portion of God – the pro-claimer of your speech – the (magicians) mustard – the life force remedy
What is life force?
(The unbearable lightness of being)
Cannot be stopped…
Infinity… (voice now being sucked through a vacuum…trailing…echoing…)
(a DEFIANT SPIRIT OF EVIL resumes ‘conversation’…)
Not ‘knowing’…not having the upper hand on this ‘LIFE’ – drives us INSANE. We must know…we must be ‘God’…we must rule. Those fools who proclaim to have a God we cannot see – we are the ones who must … who must …. (voice trails off)
…We have no one else to rely upon. Why should we believe in a God who does not come down to us – who lets us live in this strife – who allows it to be this way? Do you see my dilemma?
(VOICE OF REASON)…
You have no faith in something you cannot see. You have no faith in something which allows the world to be as it is…you have no patience for those in the waiting…
…Your creation is a machine with a mind of its own…Your creation of tit-for-tat. Your creation…
‘My’ creation!? ‘God’ created this! (spoken vilely)
You are God.
(SILENT…STUNTED…PERPLEXED)…“I” am God?
You are God… God’s microcosm. You are an infinitely small GIANT – You are a one subdivided WHOLE. You created your reality. Yes, You.
(self questioning now)…Why was I so blind?
Blinded by unknowing.
Why didn’t I know? …(getting agitated again)
Why did I forget?
You chose a direction which took you furthest away from the point of your being (soul)… sol.
Why did I do that?
Because you could – you took a chance – you went out to play with the creation you had made – and now, the creation has you captive.
Is that really such a ‘bad’ thing?
It depletes your soul – weakens your connection to your sol. And now you are stuck in PATTERNS OF REPEAT (like OCD) Weak…Fearful…Afraid.
What will it take to get out of this (mess) state?
Being unafraid – Let yourself ‘play’ in this light – as dark as it seems – let yourself experience ALL it has to offer you – knowing it is a creation of your soul – something you are ‘imagining’ is happening…all the while knowing from where you come and to where you will return. ‘Where’? Infinite Love and Awareness. Unafraid…you will unravel…uncoil yourself from this “game” of your awareness…and return once again to infinite state of your being. Just Being…bathed in the warm light of knowing – understanding exactly That Which You Are.