Whilst getting stuck in one of my O.C.D (Obsessive Compulsive) patterns, I stopped and realized something…
With O.C.D you’re on ‘automatic pilot’ – and the pilot is O.C.D. You, like a stunned mullet, sit in the passenger seat doing your repetitive habits – like in a trance – and becoming exhausted – not realizing you can switch from automatic pilot and change the captain. You can decide to change the direction.
When you do, you may become aware of all those nasty thoughts (which were causing the OCD in the first place) sort of dragging behind you… ‘stuck’ in your body/mind field of awareness. What then?
The observer collapses the field. (I think of the Observer Affect)…
Notice… simply ‘notice’ them. Notice how they feel in your body. Noticing something brings ‘light’ to the subject. Light exposes the thing.
Notice it – place all your attention onto it – and soon, just maybe, it will all simply dissolve, and you’ll be free.
What do I mean by ‘reckless abandon’?
I ‘experience’ (I won’t say “suffer” from) OCD symptoms – which, at times can be quite exhausting. Whether foolish or not, I have followed my gut instinct and not heeded my doctors’ advice to go on medication.
It is amazing what the body/spirit will do in order to survive against the odds. There is a way to help yourself – and it is all in the power of your mind…your faith…and your spirit.
The above statement/affirmation came to me this morning as I was being held in the clutches of a repetitive ocd pattern. “Reckless abandon” came across as an option…a creative way to move forward and ‘out’ of the grip of the ocd.
Realizing I am ‘choosing’ to remain trapped in the repetitive pattern – through fear of something terrible happening if I don’t do it – is empowering enough to make me think ‘what exactly am I so afraid of? ‘
The other morning another ocd stopper popped into my mind. I reasoned…
Everything that is bound to happen, will happen anyway – regardless of how many times I repeat the pattern.
You can also reason…
What has been…has been;
What will be…will be.
If we can relax into the full experience of life, and see it merely as an adventure of the spirit – without judging ourselves or anyone else – maybe we can get by.
One last empowering little OCD affirmation/statement you can say to yourself, which ‘throws a spanner’ in the works of an ocd episode, is…
There is a need (to do the repetitive thing), but, do I comply, or not?
…It may not stop the repetitive habit, but, it certainly causes your brain to realize the possibility of a new way.
I woke up this morning becoming aware of the OCD patterns I keep falling into, and realised….
Rejecting the “bad feelings” or “bad thoughts”, which cause one to continue with the OCD motions/patterns of repeat until the bad thought or feeling goes away – or at least subsides – may be futile. Perhaps the challenge really is to integrate them into our whole being…rejecting NO aspect of ourselves, in order to find peace, and finally let go of the fear.
As OCD symptoms tried to set in – standing in front of the mirror – I looked myself in the eye, and defiantly pronounced: “Be brave, ancient warrior!” I bundled my fears together and took them with me…bravely into the future.