Lessons to self
The challenge – and gift – of the Tesla Metamorphosis practitioner is to judge nothing; and to extend their loving heart to all – even the most unlovable (in self AND others). Here is where the radical shift in consciousness can take place – which raises our consciousness – causing us to take on a ‘higher frequency’, or – ‘state of consciousness’.
The lightness of being that can be felt when we choose to do this, is remarkably liberating.
A voice of doubt queries…
Q. How could I forgive myself for all the wrongs I have committed? I need to be punished –I don’t deserve the privilege of not having to judge myself!?
Here is where we stay ‘stuck’. Open your eyes! See the cause of things; know there is rhyme and reason to things. Don’t take on the ‘privilege’ of being ‘solely responsible’ for all the “bad stuff”. You are not a sole perpetrator – you are a participant – and have only ever acted from a natural instinct and ‘drive’ to do so.
Are you going to blame yourself for having been an unconscious player? When you don’t realise the karmic wheel–law of cause and effect–you are stuck on – well, you continue the motions and cycles…the ‘eye for an eye’ thing. But, when you finally see, and realise, this cycle you are trapped in, you begin to imagine a way out.
One great teacher who wanted us to see this was J.C. ‘Turning the other cheek’ was not an impractical ‘suggestion’ – it was an instruction on how to negate this perpetuating karmic cycle; how to neutralise it affects.
Okay, back to the part about forgiving self. Once you realise the cycle you have been trapped in, you can slowly – or quickly – begin to develop mercy for yourself. Recognizing your own mishaps of judgment and action – in others – can allow you to begin having mercy for others. You will be able to give mercy; and, you know the saying…what you give you shall receive.
Q. Is there ‘sin’ and punishment in ‘knowing’ these things but not ‘acting’ on them? i.e. By ‘continuing’ to act badly, we compound our ability to ‘forgive’ ourselves?
Just know – this is a very tough and stubborn skin we’re trying to shed – our old habits. So, please, do not put yourself down for slipping up! Instead, know this is a hard task and expect to occasionally fall backwards. But, do persevere; ‘Carry your cross’; and, keep that head pointed in the direction you want to go.
When tempted to become angry, for example – rather than slipping into the whole drama and fiasco of it (and ultimate guilt), reason with yourself –ask: ‘why’ am I feeling angry? Bring awareness to the situation, remembering it is a karmic response…an ‘effect’ of a cause – an ‘equal and opposite’ reaction to a thing. ‘Light’ on the situation allows you navigate through it. You decide – ‘O.k.’…. Where ‘do’ I want to go with this? – Actually, I don’t want to be angry…so, I will let it go.
Please note that my writing is based on my own research, creative contemplation’s, and, intuitive understanding. I write with a certain conviction which often bemuses me – I wonder ‘where’ these insights come from, and, is there any merit to them. I do not claim to know or present “fact” or “truth”.
Strife, it seems, is inevitable. Perhaps the only way to overcome it is to accept it is there…in us. We perpetuate it; we are burdened by it; we disown it in ourselves…(who wants to be the ‘villain’ anyway?!) I, personally, am coming to terms with it within myself. The constant ‘fear led’ angry reactions – which keep me bound in cycles of fear; anger; guilt; and regret – only lead to self-imposed imprisonment, where I/we deny any ‘good’ things coming our way – we don’t deserve them after all!
I am beginning to see a way ‘out’ of this cycle. Through unconditional love and acceptance of all things just as they are. No, I don’t mean being complacent; I mean, judging not; and, purely by accepting that it is this way for a reason; and, we are caught in a cause and effect experience…a ‘tit-for-tat’ automatic responsive experience.
Now, when strife arises, I am beginning to stop myself in my tracks, and simply ‘notice’ where I am feeling it in my body, or, ’field of awareness’. I notice it feels low and heavy; I notice where it ‘wants to take me’ – to an angry outburst. Well, I have news for it! I am choosing a new way. By deciding not to ‘react’, and instead, raising my awareness, on purpose, to the area just above my head; the area where my thoughts are ‘closer to God’.
(My voice of reason speaking to me this morning)…
Moving forward in Love is…(might be)…the only way out; out of the strife; the ‘snare’ of the strife.
Acceptance of the strife is the necessary ingredient in relinquishing it (?!) Or…
Acceptance that there ‘is’ strife, is the key! (Yes! That feels better).
Knowing there ‘is’ strife, and understanding that it ‘will’ occasionally pop up; but, when it does, recognizing it for what it is, and shutting down the automatic responses in favour of an all-embracing loving ‘awareness’ of it. Not judging it as ‘good’ or ‘bad’…it ‘is’ what it ‘is’…nothing more, nothing less.
This attitude/response to strife will change the vibrational frequency of your being, giving you a lightness where your heart soon opens up and begins spreading out in all directions – where once you would retract into a hardened ball of fear. This spreading out of your heart ‘wings’ will begin to affect others, who may once have only known one response to strife…that of judging; blame; anger; and shrinking fear. As more bodies pick up this new (‘rediscovered’) frequency (“vibe”), a greater illumination/’lightness’ of being will being to occur.
Practice this! ‘Expect’ to “fall off the bike” every now and then while learning this new ‘thing’, but, get back on the bike, as would a child, and learn how to ride it.
When strife is overtaking you, try this simple exercise…
- Acknowledge the feeling, without judging it or yourself; understanding that there is a reason for it. E.g. “Ok, I am feeling anger right now”.
- Accept that strife ‘does’ exist, but, I can now ‘choose’ how to respond to it.
- Notice ‘where’ in your body, or awareness, you are feeling this. E.g. a trembling gut; quivering hands; pulsing veins; etc.
- Now, rather than letting yourself fall into the “same old trap” of strife/anger reactions, simply ‘decide’ not to, and draw your awareness upwards…towards ‘God’…physically standing up straight with your face, and mind, looking ‘up’. This immediately ‘lightens’ you, causing your mind to begin vibrating at the level of crown chakra – a place where God can more easily reach you, because you are choosing to meet Him there.
Sound too simple? Perhaps “raising our vibration/awareness/frequency” is simply a matter of choosing to.
The strife you can forgive in others is the strife you are willing to forgive in yourself.
Re: ‘Lessons to Self’
Everything I write comes from my own voice of reason, speaking to me, telling me ‘how it is’. I share this, not because I claim it as any type of “truth”, but, because, as it helps ‘me’ through my own trials, maybe it can help someone else too.