May we receive the forgiveness our hearts so long desire.
Diary of a mystic daydreamer
May we receive the forgiveness our hearts so long desire.
A night searching the net for information on biblical rapture, led me to some sites which spoke of times of tribulation – which tended to be more fear inducing than anything else. Within this fear I began to ponder, and search for answers within myself. This diary entry reflects some of my thoughts…
Diary entry: January 12, 2018
Don’t see it as something to fear – see it as a natural progression of events in an un-holy land – a land where we have allowed ourselves to be controlled by fear; doubt; and, uncertainty – rather than by love.
Know it for what it is; i.e. symptoms of a sick world – outcomes of fear-based living; not as a force which has power ‘over’ me/us, but, rather – a thing which exists ‘because’ of us – because of our reasoning and doubt. Can you stop a scab from forming on a wounded knee? Can you stop mucus forming from an infected throat? Horrible ‘symptoms’ are signs the body is cleansing itself. ‘Must’ they come to pass? (we dread). We – who are more than we know – can will ourselves to experience anything we desire – we are the dreamers of dreams – we can ‘change the reel’ of any picture we are viewing. How? By changing it…switching stations! Switch our station to God/Love – and we instantly ‘tune-in’ to that – and will know – and see – only that.
Fear of ‘something else’ harming us, will dissolve. Understanding; love; and compassion will set in, and throw off our old shackles of victim-hood. The ‘genie in the bottle’ really does grant us our wishes; the ‘genie’ of God’s Great Morpheus Wonder, responds to our very wishes and desires. Desire to be at one (atoned), and to know only one – one truth – that there ‘is’ no ‘other’… ultimately. Amen
If ever faced with something seemingly threatening, which reduces you to fear – know and declare this…
Love Is All I Know – I Know Only Love
‘Everything’ is possible. You will see whatever you are ‘tuned-in’ to. Every conceivable thought exists – as a thing – in a thought form factory – ready to be shipped in a three-dimensional form – once enough human desire and emotion has been mixed into the ingredients. You will (only ever) see what you are tuned-in to; whatever ‘station’ you are tuned into, is the program you are going to see. What does this ‘mean’? E.g. If you are tuned-in to see, or expect, only hatred; grief; anger fueling injustice – then, you will attract/pick up all those types of frequencies/things/situations/people from the environment around you. You will see only these things – if it is only these things you are tuned-in to – or expect – ‘to’ see from life. What do you ‘want’ to see?
Please note: My writing is based on my own research; creative contemplation; and intuitive reasoning. Although I may write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present fact, or truth.
In terms of numerology, 2018 represents an 11/2 year, (2+0+1+8 = 11; 1+1 = 2) and, is also my personal 2 year. This way I feel somewhat in tune with the collective.
For the last few weeks I have been seeing 2’s quite often; and on this New Year’s morning, I began contemplating the two opposing sides of my personality – the “good”, and, the “bad”. I sensed that this year would be a year of resolving this conflict – or, at least coming to terms with it.
Diary entry: January 1, 2018
Two equally important sides – make up one significant whole.
No longer can I reject one, or the other. Both sides must be acknowledged. I cannot run away from my shadow. Why do I have a shadow? Because the illusion of a single, separate form makes it so.
When I am ‘the light’, I have no shadows; but, when I am a ‘separate entity’ – in a ‘body’ – I have a shadow! So, do I be the light, or, do I be the body?
(Enters a voice of reason)… I Am Both!
If I am both – I am neither one, nor the other! If I am ‘All’ of it…I cannot only be one ‘part’ of it.
(Voice of doubt responds) …Okay, the part of me that ‘does’ seem separate – with ‘shadow’ – i.e. my body… (Sentence interrupted by the voice of reason)…
There is only one body! See past the illusion – and you will see Me! (Think of an amoeba). Only One body – trying to work itself through the illusion!
Go in Grace, and wonder… Who I am.
…An end to separateness! I can live with that!
The ‘Way-shower’ was certainly here for a reason. The following article by Noel Huntley may make you think.
Many of the concepts and understandings involved in this extraordinary event of the birth of ’Jesus Christ’ will be found too astounding to believe by most.
On the basis of our limiting and suppressive educational system this is unfortunately not surprising. What is not realized, though considered normal, is that modern man now has a mind structured quantitatively on objective knowledge (knowledge separate from self), forming a context-dependent mind, deficient in intuition and direct knowingness, which is experiential through the mind and spirit and is of the nature of beingness.
The more emphasis there is on objectivity and left-brain consciousness, the more separated are the elements of experience and thought (hence the emphasis on (3D) logic), requiring intellectual understanding only, and based on concrete external 3D-world phenomena only. Under these objective conditions experience actually becomes more unconscious as perceptive and mental data become representational (objective).
The spectrum of perception reduces to the lower end and paranormal experiences no longer form a natural part of everyday life.
Energy patterns of perception and understanding relating to qualities and higher perception are being filtered off and diverted, bringing about a programmed mind with fixed thinking and subject to thought control. An objective mind without the subjective link being recognized will simulate more a machine or robot.
A civilization operating on objective understanding only, will consider itself advanced, in particular, since nearly all its knowledge is at the objectively-provable level and anything outside this spectrum is not perceived and is considered nonexistent. Any knowledge outside this establishment territory is ignored or ridiculed. The inner-workings of life and true knowledge can be experiential with an expanded and balanced consciousness.
This dumbing down of qualitative perceptions, which are direct, and involve resonance and expansion of consciousness, prevents us today from detecting phenomena outside the objectively enforced band of frequencies, and common knowledge (from periods of ancient history), such as Earth portals, are not recognized today.
The Earth apparently has countless such electromagnetic or etheric gateways which lead to Inner Earth. This is not hollow Earth, but a frequency modulation zone between our Earth and its anti-universe pair, referred to as parallel Earth or antiparticle Earth, forming a separate ’Inner’ Earth.
The following is a brief and simplified account of the true birth of ’Jesus’, transmitted from the Guardians by Ashayana Deane.
The correct name for Jesus was ’Jesheua’, though religious historians will refer to ’Yesheua’ (or similar spelling). Apparently several letters of the Hebrew alphabet were changed, in particular, ’J’ was changed to ’Y’. Thus the original name of the spiritual avatar that we recognize by the name, Jesus, was ’Jesheua’.
Jesheua’s parents weren’t Joseph and Mary, as depicted in the Biblical version. This is apparently not a natural confusion but a deliberate fabrication to present a different story. Another priest by the similar sounding name ’Jeshewua’ but slightly different spelling, was born to Joseph and Mary, and furthermore this spiritual leader married Mary Magdeline, hence the rumor that it was Jesus.
These spiritual figures are distinguished thus:
The numbers signify their qualification in relationship to dimensions and DNA.
[Jeshewua-9 was of the Hyksos Illuminati lineage and was on a bio-regenesis rehabilitation contract under the supervision of the Guardians.]
Now any planned birth will be fulfilled through a complex program involving many beings.
This would be even more pronounced in the case of the birthing of an avatar and, in particular, on an important mission. On this occasion a group of six significant incarnations were arranged, including Jesheua-12, from higher realms.
These were called Eckars, three pairs of spiritual twins, denoting their ascended level of origin.
All were Indigos – probably all type-1 Indigo, who were dedicated to the Christos Re-alignment Mission.
Our calendar time system was not started at Jesheua’s birth but when he was 12 years old. This relates to the highly technical process by which an avatar soul incarnates into this density. This entity came from the 4th (frequency) density level of this sector of the galaxy, referred to as the Avatar level or Christos consciousness, and could not with safety (to the body’s physical structure) fully ’walk-in’ until the age of 12 years, whence the advanced DNA (fully intact requirement) was activated and integrated.
All six Eckars were carrying required codes (frequency patterns) in their DNA and blueprint, with the purpose of anchoring them into Earth’s blueprint and field system to align Earth’s energies in preparation for the next ascension cycle (Stellar Activation cycles) between the years 2000 and 2017. These three pairs of twins were known as the Eckatic Trinity and were related to the incarnated 144,000 Indigos during the Christ period.
The mere presence of these Indigos, down-stepped the Eckars’ frequencies for DNA compatibility of the human race.
On November 22, 12 BC, Jesheua-12 was born of natural conception to parents Jeudi and Joehius, Essene priests, in the home of Ben-Yumen (Benjamin in the Bible) on the outskirts of Bethlehem, where Jesheua and his mother Jeudi remained in hiding from Herod. Then on December 20 they took their child to their home in Bethlehem.
The three kings (three wise men) also played a significant role in the preparation of the avatar infant for a proper integration between DNA and consciousness. As stated, a complex procedure with specific developments was necessary, and it wasn’t until the age of 12 that the full 4th density being could enter the body.
The three kings, whose attendance at Jesheua’s birth was prophesized, were informed of their role and their assistance requested by an Inner-Earth being. The kings were from India, Tibet, and Egypt respectively. How did they travel such great distances? One of the major and hidden, guarded secrets in our modern society is the existence of many inner-space portals on Earth, which would reveal the presence of other civilizations and lead to universal Inner-Earth portals.
This is why explorers’ – such as Admiral Byrd – accounts have been suppressed.
The Inner-Earth visitor provided the kings with portal security access codes (frequency patterns, which either are inherent or are embedded in the DNA, or meditated upon visually or by oral sound, in the form of symbols resonant to the frequency patterns). This meant they could enter portals in their own country and exit a portal in Bethlehem a short time later.
This Inner-Earth being became known as ’The Way-Shower’, and the ’Shepherd of the Light’, and also ’Father Christmas’ from which the legends were built.
Unexpectedly the kings entrance into Bethlehem through the portal was spotted by Herod’s guards. This, combined with knowledge of the prophecy, endangered still further Jesheua’s whereabouts being found out by Herod. The three kings brought with them herbs, minerals and sacred preparations described in the biblical version as frankincense, myrrh and gold.
The ’gold’ was in fact a transmutation of the hard metal gold into gold powder, known as ’stardust blue’ or ’blue-powder gold’. This was a dried form of a powerful chemical called celestalline; a liquid secreted through the skin either during so-called ’stargate’ passage (major portals in Inner Earth requiring body transmutation to the dimensional frequency beyond) or at death of the body when of sufficient ascension status.
(Celestalline – Stardust Blue – White Powder Gold)from Educate-Yourself Website
A natural transient (very short life) element. The ancient Egyptians try to find them in the substance called white gold powder, and also tried to manufacture it. The substance only appears during the process of natural biological Star Gate passage Ascension when the body transmutes temporarily into light and rides in the Celesteline wave and then it re-manifest on the other side. When the process of natural biological Star Gate passage happens the body leaves a powder (pale blue) residue – Celesteline – that was eagerly tried to collect in the ancient days in Egypt and also tried to chemically create it as a white or gold powder.
By the way, white powder gold and other type of mono-atomic substance that some are playing with these days and putting on the market as supplements they advance and accelerate the process of Molecular Compaction, so you know. What it does is that it radically stimulates the introduction of higher dimensional currents, but out of order and if your templates are damaged, without the D-12 Sub-harmonic carrier wave, you get a rush and feel better for a while your templates are eroding right underneath you.
It also creates a dependency of the body and in the long run your body gets sicker faster. You don’t need to take artificial white powder gold, it is a trickery, since you have the ability to use your mind to run your body in a way that before long you will be able to manufacture your own Celesteline form inside out. Celesteline actually pops out in the DNA. It comes out in the Hydrogen bonds that link together the DNA spirals.
Those hydrogen molecules change in the process of cellular transmutation. That is the place where the element Celesteline that only activates for the purpose of bodily transmutation as part of the natural chemical process. (Phoenix 8-2002 Lectures. DVD 2 – Track 2. 29:00 Min ) Upon contact with oxygen, liquid Celestalline secretions dry to a fine powder, which rapidly breaks down into inert elemental units.
Celestalline powder is a natural bio-chemical by-product secreted by the body during Star Gate passage, or upon death of the physical body if the consciousness is able to achieve Star Gate ascension out of Density-1. Pure Celestalline powder can be collected in minute amounts gently dusting the skin after one has passed through a Star Gate and re-manifest on the other side. If it is rapidly collected and specially stored, pure Celestalline powder is a powerful healing agent as it can trigger temporary burst of 12-Strand DNA Template activation for anchoring and individual’s D-12 Divine Blueprint.
In ancient Egypt impure Celestalline powder or its aged residue was harvested from corpses of mummies whenever discovered. Impure Celestalline powder, known as “White Powder Celestalline” or “White Powder Gold” was used by illuminati Pharaohs to trigger psychic powers by unnatural activation of higher strands of DNA Template; this process led to permanent disability of the lower DNA strands, physical addiction to the substance and eventually insanity.
Celestalline dries on contact with oxygen and eventually degenerates into white-powder gold.
Note that this white powder gold has apparently been rediscovered more recently and has been sold as a stimulant for the enhancement of consciousness. Unfortunately the ’high’ created by this white powder eventually results in mental and spiritual impairment and ultimately insanity, as the Pharaohs of Egypt and the Anunnaki ETs eventually found out after the latter created the Neanderthal-man race (see article on Neanderthal Man and the Illuminati) to mine for gold and infuse the white powder product into their atmosphere.
On rare and sacred occasions the ’stardust blue’ can be used safely and to advantage. A small quantity of the blue-powder gold was given to the infant and ingested to trigger a temporary burst of the 12-strand DNA for anchoring the Divine blue print. After Jesheua’s Regent Ordination, as it was called, there was still the imminent threat from Herod discovering the whereabouts of the baby, the three kings, and the Indigos.
The ’Way-Shower’ with the help of Ben-Yumen made preparations for the safe passage of the return of the kings to their homelands by camel and donkey from the house of Joehius in Bethlehem. Eleven-year old Immanuelle was given a drum and two drum-beat codes: ’safe passage’ and ’guard warning’ and positioned himself on watch by the stables.
When the grounds were clear of guards the ’safe passage’ signal enabled the kings to escape and with instructions from the Inner-Earth visitor to follow the ’brightest star’, which was a spacecraft, into the desert and await to be escorted to the Bethlehem portal.
The Inner-Earth being then returned to collect Immanuelle to safely return him to Ben-Yumen’s house. Further danger arose as the soldiers again appeared on the scene. Immanuelle drummed the ’guard warning’ to alert the returning Inner-Earth being, who in turn saw that the young boy was in danger of being found by the soldiers.
Immanuelle was vital to the mission; it was also essential none of the Indigos were located. In attempting to save Immanuelle the two of them found themselves in the stable surrounded by Herod’s men who set fire to the stables. In an attempt to protect the boy the Inner-Earth being placed him in a trough of water and lay down on top. Nevertheless the roof caved in and they both left their bodies.
A new plan had to be initiated for their reincarnation. In particular, Immanuelle had to reincarnate as soon as possible to fulfill his role in the mission. Meanwhile the three kings waited in the desert for their escort.
John the Baptist and Merigedra were next informed by further Inner-Earth beings that they would be ideal to serve as parents for Immanuelle. Unfortunately Merigedra was infertile. Both Merigedra and her twin, then her husband, dedicated to the mission, agreed that she must physically die and reincarnate in another body. Unfortunate as this was, it was carried through.
Several spiritual visitations were made by Immanuelle and the Inner Earth being, informing them of the new plan, which included Immanuelle’s rebirth, and further that the baby Jesheua would have to be taken to Inner Earth for safety until the age of 12. Also the three kings received a spiritual visitation in the desert from the Inner-Earth being who directed them to disguise themselves as beggars, and guided them to the Bethlehem portal, enabling them to return to their respective homelands.
Furthermore, Merigedra was given a cluster of golden-sage twigs by Immanuelle; a healing plant from Inner Earth and told to make a wreath like a golden crown.
On December 22, 12 BC the Indigo Eckars and family group met at Ben-Yumen’s for a celebration. This involved a fourth visitation from Immanuelle and the ’Way-shower’ It was on this occasion that the golden wreath was placed around the baby Jesheua’s head, and the ’Way-shower’, by placing his hand on the wreath, transmitted the access security codes of the Arc of the Covenant portal passage at Giza into the DNA of Jesheua.
This enabled Jesheua, when an adult, to conduct ascensions through the Arc of the Covenant in the Great Pyramid.
Six years after Merigedra left her body she was reborn to Jeudi, who had now married Ben-Yumen, Joehius having passed away and also Ben-Yumen’s wife. Merigedra returned in 5 BC as ’Miriam’ and in 10 AD was again married to John the Baptist. A year later Immanuelle was born, with the name Jeremiah-Immanuelle. The first part of the mission could now be completed.
This first objective, already mentioned, was to transmit the respective codes of the six Eckars into the Earth’s grid. Unfortunately this is a completely unfamiliar area to scientists and humans in general on this planet. Our current knowledge is inadequate to handle these technical procedures.
Also humans have to get used to new concepts; this is in addition to lack of understanding. Even 2000 years ago ’Jesus’ would have understood these mechanics and also the nature of the universe better than any scientist today, but not through equations or graphs, etc.); rewriting of history has been so thorough.
This transfer of codes into the Earth’s grid was achieved through the process of each individual, on separate occasions, being brought into the Arc of the Covenant – a portal bridge in the Great Pyramid. Thus by this means the codes within the Eckars’ DNAs were transmitted through the passage of the Arc of the Covenant into the Earth (see article on Arc of the Covenant).
The second part of the Eckars’ mission did not succeed. The aim was to cancel the program which activated the Nibiru Diodic Crystal under Stonehenge fromWormwood – a planet and relay station on the opposite orbit point of its controlling Anunnaki planet Nibiru, now approximately at is furthest point from us in the Pleiades system, with orbital period 3,600 years around our Sun.
To disconnect Wormwood required the team of Indigos to utilize special portal access tools and artifacts. Anunnaki, temporarily having defected to the Guardians, failed to carry out their promise of returning one of these (stolen by Thoth), referred to as CDT holographic plate 11, which was necessary for the task.
Stonehenge was apparently built over the Nibiru Diodic Crystal to block its energies, when the circle of stones were intact. This Anunnaki global implant system has partially been deactivated more recently.
Who was Jeshewua-9? He had ET ancestry which the Elohim didn’t want revealed to the human race and thus fabricated the ’Immaculate Conception’ story. Both parents of Jeshewua-9, Mary and Joseph, were Nephilims. Joseph’s father was part of the Jehovah entity, which was involved in the creation of an Anunnaki species and worked with the Elohim. (See the role Jeshewua played in the crucifixion of Christ in the article, Who was Jesus?)
It is interesting to note that the parents of Jesheua-12, Jeudi and Joehius, had different ancestral lineages. Joehius was descended from King Solomon, son of King David of the Hyksos Illuminati line and Solomon’s mother, Bathsheba, of the Indigo Grail line.
Thus the Indigo line was carried into the Hyksos Illuminati through Solomon for bio-regenesis of the fallen Hyksos lineage – deliberately planned by the overseeing Founders.
This article was found here.
As OCD symptoms tried to set in – yet again – this affirmation popped into my head, which I declared – then, moved forward to continue tasks uninterrupted.
A diary entry to work out feelings of irritation turned into another relieving insight…
Please note: My writing is based on my own research; creative contemplation’s; and intuitive reasoning. Although I may write with a certain conviction, I do not claim to know or present fact, or truth.
Diary Entry – Saturday DEC 16 2017
For some reason I am feeling agitated. I feel like all the “bad stuff”- bad ‘feelings’- are concentrated. I am feeling like a ‘hypocrite’ for offering Distant ‘Healing’ to others. Why am I feeling this way? (A voice of reason responded)…
Because, I tell you Tracy… not one day will go by when I don’t find a way to show you that I care about your welfare. You drain and moan – all the while ‘knowing’, deep down in your heart, that I really do care. You need to show it to the world. I can’t make you stop this moaning – I can show you the way… to mercy. I show you mercy – I give you mercy –please, give this to others.
I feel, ‘surely’ I am evil, and guilty, for such behavior –such irritable, angry behavior.
You will feel – always – what you feel. (Your experience will always be what you feel it is)
‘Am’ I guilty…guilty for wallowing in the mire? Guilty for indulging in irritable displays of emotion? ‘Why’ do I have such a need to express the irritation? (Voice of reason continues to respond)…
Because you don’t see reason –you only feel emotion –and, your emotions are fueled by fire! Redirect them into positive cause. ‘Give’ and you will receive… The amount you measure out is the amount you will be given back.
I need healing, God. Will I…
You get what you give! (Answered before I could finish the question)
I was going to ask: Will ‘I’ receive healing by helping others in their healing?
Stand up straight – look up and feel the connection with your spirit –with God/Source. Do it on purpose! Lift ‘yourself’ out of the mire! Behold – I AM God.
(ego self begins speculating…’I’ am God!?)
No! Not the ‘ego’ – but, the “essence” – the “conscious awareness” – the consciousness ‘in me’….is “God”. That One Blanket of Truth – that Blanket of ‘Awareness’ which covers/spans the universe…is ‘God’.
My individual self…my ‘body’… is part of that Truth?
It is an ‘expression’ of the activity of that truth –within Itself.
‘Is’ it that ‘Truth’, or ‘God’? Is the ‘expression’ (i.e. the ‘results’ of creative thinking – the “things” created by thought –our bodies included)? Are the “things” of creation, ‘automatons’ (i.e. soulless ‘machines’)? (A voice cuts in)…
Created ‘with’ the Truth – ‘with’ Awareness – but, not sole dwelling places ‘for’ that Truth/God.
Does ‘awareness’/’God’ dwell in ALL things?
‘Sunspots’ (came to mind) –aspects of creation where God no longer dwells; for strife has taken over.
The “things” became trapped in the mechanics of the natural laws of cause and effect. The natural laws of cause and effect keep “things” in motion; while God –who created them – amusingly sits back and watches the automaton circus play itself out. But, God watches attentively – for, God Himself/Herself/Itself, is partly trapped in it –part of God’s Own Awareness is trapped in the dream circus of creation. Sunspots i.e. holes in God’s awareness of Itself* [speculatative thought]
So, expecting ‘God’ to come down and “fix” everything is like waiting for yourself to come and get ‘yourself’ out of bed. Only you can do this…willingly.
Oh yeah… but, there is this great thing called ‘equilibrium’; i.e. God’s natural barometer of Itself. This will even things out –with or without God’s full Awareness. Is the ultimate goal to find balance/harmony without the need to press the mechanical reset button?
By sheer Awareness, and, Understanding, of One’s Self – not caught in traps…’snares’ of guilt…desire…fear etc; but, by sheer knowledge of One’s Self to be the full Expression of Love (?!)
To delight in the expression of ‘loving joy’ and freedom of creation; with full Awareness of one’s self.
That, too, would get a bit boring after some eons of time. Then, would it be back to ‘strife’ and ‘chaos’, and ‘forgetfulness’ of one’s self…’again’; only to eventually rediscover it –in a moment of ecstatic joy –bursting forth – ‘again’ – as Infinite Creators of Our Universe (?!)
PS This is why I value journaling so much. I started his diary entry feeling burdened by feelings of agitation – and ended it feeling like I have regained some breathing space. Amen.
Following on from yesterday’s diary entry – as the spirit of strife (and guilt) continued to dig its claws into me – triggered by a sense of remorse for past actions…
Sunday December 17 2017
It ‘happened’. I cannot wallow in the mire for ever. I could if I choose to, though. The strife happened! I cannot change that fact; though, I can change the thoughts surrounding that memory.
Self-condemnation for Eternity?
‘God’…do You want me to condemn myself for ‘eternity’? (Is this ‘God’, asking ‘God’, what ‘God’ would do!?) Or, is it the ‘flesh Being’ condemning itself? God dwells within this, though. God dwells in the flesh Being.
Is God’s Awareness ‘trapped’ – ‘deformed’ – ‘distorted’, ‘by’ the flesh Being (i.e. by “us”)?
Can God’s Awareness ‘be’ distorted? It is ‘God’ after all (!?)
> The resonant field of fear is SO STRONG on Earth, that it keeps part of God’s Awareness held/trapped within it (!?)
Am I to be punished for upsetting my mum? (I did so, because ‘she’ upset ‘me’…(ego cries out)!
‘Can’ I forgive myself? ‘Will’ I? Willing – Will ‘I’ forgive ‘me’? Clouds ‘cloud’ my thinking – make it hard to see, and understand. Will it always be this way?
“STRIFE ON FIRE, KEEPS US BOGGED IN THE MIRE”.
Addicted to strife, are we? Addicted to anger? “Why”?
…Allows us to ‘let off steam’! Tension building up stresses us.
“Why” so much ‘tension’?
Anger over our ‘predicament’…angry at someone ELSE for ‘OUR’ predicament?
Anger at someone ‘else’, is this the only ‘way’ we know how to not face “the blame”!??
The ‘blame’ for THE WAY THINGS ARE.
Hell! Who would ‘want’ to take the blame? Kerfuffle! We are in our own Kerfuffle! ‘Surely’ there is a “God” ‘up there’, who is responsible for ALL THIS – who we can ‘blame’!?
Aargh!! (Frustration that WE should finally realize)…“We” are the Creators – the Doers – the Movers – and Shakers! “We” are responsible for it all.
“We” are all the ONE Being, (appearing to be) divided into MANY parts. The Blanket “exploded”- still all pieces of the ONE Blanket!
The Consciousness – the Awareness – the holographic ‘pieces’ – of the One Whole Being…we are! ‘Too’ enthusiastic? Tell me it’s not true. Yes, ‘others’ have said it – I am not making out like ‘I’ am the discoverer of it. I am one of the parts ‘realizing’ it! If one can –all must be able to. Are you ‘tuned in’ to receive it?
Ask, and you shall receive;
Seek, and you fill find;
Knock, and the door will be opened to you.
This affirmation came to me when I was finding it hard to feel ‘love’ for a person who challenges me. Realizing that holding ‘grudges’ will only set me back – keep me ‘bound’ in the vicious cycle of the ‘eye for an eye’ law of the natural world – I decided I need to radically embrace this person whom I feel challenged by.
Defying your natural instinct to react badly to someone who may be “pushing your buttons” is really a ‘radical’ thing to do; but, once you do it – and get yourself off the vicious cycle – you might find that you will be glad you did. I was.
If we were to undergo a ‘rapture’ – or, an event which would determine our spiritual destiny – holding on to grudges; having ill thoughts towards another; being unforgiving towards others AND self; where would that leave us? In what state of being…state of ‘awareness’, will we end up? The light “freedom” of loving…healing…’forgiveness’ – or, the heavy…burdened…’halls of hell’ (being a state of mind)?
I know what I would prefer; but, will I be willing to let go of all the crap … I should!
*’Sister’ and ‘brother’ refers to ALL OTHER FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS – not only ‘blood’ relatives.
The challenge – and gift – of the Tesla Metamorphosis practitioner is to judge nothing; and to extend their loving heart to all – even the most unlovable (in self AND others). Here is where the radical shift in consciousness can take place – which raises our consciousness – causing us to take on a ‘higher frequency’, or – ‘state of consciousness’.
The lightness of being that can be felt when we choose to do this, is remarkably liberating.
A voice of doubt queries…
Q. How could I forgive myself for all the wrongs I have committed? I need to be punished –I don’t deserve the privilege of not having to judge myself!?
Here is where we stay ‘stuck’. Open your eyes! See the cause of things; know there is rhyme and reason to things. Don’t take on the ‘privilege’ of being ‘solely responsible’ for all the “bad stuff”. You are not a sole perpetrator – you are a participant – and have only ever acted from a natural instinct and ‘drive’ to do so.
Are you going to blame yourself for having been an unconscious player? When you don’t realise the karmic wheel–law of cause and effect–you are stuck on – well, you continue the motions and cycles…the ‘eye for an eye’ thing. But, when you finally see, and realise, this cycle you are trapped in, you begin to imagine a way out.
One great teacher who wanted us to see this was J.C. ‘Turning the other cheek’ was not an impractical ‘suggestion’ – it was an instruction on how to negate this perpetuating karmic cycle; how to neutralise it affects.
Okay, back to the part about forgiving self. Once you realise the cycle you have been trapped in, you can slowly – or quickly – begin to develop mercy for yourself. Recognizing your own mishaps of judgment and action – in others – can allow you to begin having mercy for others. You will be able to give mercy; and, you know the saying…what you give you shall receive.
Q. Is there ‘sin’ and punishment in ‘knowing’ these things but not ‘acting’ on them? i.e. By ‘continuing’ to act badly, we compound our ability to ‘forgive’ ourselves?
Just know – this is a very tough and stubborn skin we’re trying to shed – our old habits. So, please, do not put yourself down for slipping up! Instead, know this is a hard task and expect to occasionally fall backwards. But, do persevere; ‘Carry your cross’; and, keep that head pointed in the direction you want to go.
When tempted to become angry, for example – rather than slipping into the whole drama and fiasco of it (and ultimate guilt), reason with yourself –ask: ‘why’ am I feeling angry? Bring awareness to the situation, remembering it is a karmic response…an ‘effect’ of a cause – an ‘equal and opposite’ reaction to a thing. ‘Light’ on the situation allows you navigate through it. You decide – ‘O.k.’…. Where ‘do’ I want to go with this? – Actually, I don’t want to be angry…so, I will let it go.
Please note that my writing is based on my own research, creative contemplation’s, and, intuitive understanding. I write with a certain conviction which often bemuses me – I wonder ‘where’ these insights come from, and, is there any merit to them. I do not claim to know or present “fact” or “truth”.