Last night I watched a YouTube interview with Betty Kovacs – a scholar of Comparative Literature and Theory of Symbolic/Mythic Language. The previous night I had watched Merchants of Light: The consciousness that is changing the world – a documentary about Betty and the book she wrote of the same name.

I found these documentaries very inspiring, as they spoke of how society has been living in a very left brained, masculine oriented world…a world which has been cut off from the divine feminine principle, and from the heart—the result being an overbalance of logic driven science, and unfortunately an abundance of violence and discord as well.

Betty expressed how, in 621BCE, the Deuteronomists had found a sacred text, and upon their interpretation of it, decided to remove the feminine principle of scripture, establishing a purely patriarchal society. My own logical mind wanted to know why they had done that, but that is another story.

The purpose of me telling you about Betty Kovacs, is because of a dream I had last night. The dream was as follows…

Vast numbers of adolescent males cramming suddenly into the top floor of tall buildings. I watched very concerned that these structures could collapse due to the weight. Suddenly there was a risk of collapse and the young men had to evacuate very quickly by jumping out of the building, with risk of harm or death to the young men. I turned my head when they jumped, not wanting to see…

The dream was disturbing, and I wondered what on earth it meant. After some thought, I realised the dream may have been portraying a danger in suddenly attempting to raise one’s frequency to gain higher states of awareness (the top floor of the buildings in my dream being symbolic of the third eye and crown chakra).  I also recalled the parable of the narrow gate. It is here I made the connection to the Betty Kovacs interview where she mentioned how she used shamanic practices to altar her state of consciousness in order to communicate with her late son. I am not suggesting that what Betty did was wrong, it just got me thinking about this topic of using manipulative techniques to raise kundalini/consciousness, rather than it occurring on its own as a natural progression through stages of awareness and understanding.

The following diary entry is a sort of ‘soul communication’ (i.e. an often odd sounding dialogue between a voice of reason, and a voice of doubt) which I made in an attempt to understand the dream I had. The fact that there were vast numbers of male adolescents made me feel this dream may not have been solely about my own masculine side, but that of the whole of our society. In which case I will share it.

The Lesson of the dream

The lower levels of consciousness must each be mastered, which creates ‘steps’ needed to go higher, naturally, in God’s good time, to reach expanded awareness. 

Large numbers of people trying to suddenly reach altered states/enlightenment all at once, without having naturally evolved, will cause a risk to the structure of society/of the body, which could collapse!?

Our (my) masculine force is young and underdeveloped!? How do I treat him? What did this dream mean?

A voice of reason…

It means you have to look after your father, by being what you have there waiting for you all along. The courage and strength to overcome obstacles with patience and guidance/kindness. The guidance of the inner knowing of light beyond our physical senses. We understand this to be kundalini (?) How do we/you attain it? By becoming one in nature with the arising force. Circle around it and through it. Let it transcend you ever onwards and upwards by delivering you to the fathers grace/face…of knowing where you came from.

Left field alignment with holy waters of grace. The feminine aspect will guide you to this. Let your Love flow into All aspects of yourself, illuminating and setting free the weary burden of your tired soul, longing for detachment from the things which ruin its bliss.

How do I save many?(If I am here to help in someway)

By being one with the many. Being one of them. Lifting one can lift many. 

What of the ones who don’t make it?

What’s the urgency, dear one? Time never runs out. There is always time to get things done, in God‘s Kingdom, at one time or another.

Will souls be trapped in darkness for long periods of time?

What is a long period of time, dear one, but a speckle in God’s breath. How much sweeter is success for those who have to wait.

But they could be so weary from waiting, that they don’t see success when it finally comes.

Weariness is only a condition, and with enough light and Love each will have their share and come into that light and Love eventually….a subtle awakening into a dream of bliss. One will forget all that came before.

Afterthought

The adolescent male. The thwarted young male. The male disconnected from the female. The male principle, unmarried to its feminine equal. The soul divided… torn in two. He is lost, he can’t function with out his soul partner. His energy is out of balance. He is haywire. His energy is exaggerated….malfunctioning…overblown. No, it is not his fault. It is our fault….our society….

Women….she did it….she got us into this mess….she is guilty…she needs to suffer….I can get by without her, says the male…the patriarch. No, we can’t. We need each other…we are one person, we need to function together. Bring us back together.

Adam was one person…became divided so as to have a partner… a companion…company from being lonely. Blaming her…Eve…for taking forbidden fruit… It is you, male, it is your other half, not someone else. We are the same person. It is an aspect of your/ our own self who is responsible. Acceptance for what has been, for what is, for what may come. Together. Undivided. Meld together in spirit. Function together. Overcome the divide….the strife…the fear. Let the feminine aspect of yourself/ourself rise and nourish and inform our whole spirit, our whole logic. Let the wisdom, the kundalini rise spontaneously, of its own accord. God will know the time…the right time. Play in your new found day.