I ‘experience’ (I won’t say “suffer” from) OCD symptoms – which, at times can be quite exhausting. Whether foolish or not, I have followed my gut instinct and not heeded my doctors’ advice to go on medication.
It is amazing what the body/spirit will do in order to survive against the odds. There is a way to help yourself – and it is all in the power of your mind…your faith…and your spirit.
The above statement/affirmation came to me this morning as I was being held in the clutches of a repetitive ocd pattern. “Reckless abandon” came across as an option…a creative way to move forward and ‘out’ of the grip of the ocd.
Realizing I am ‘choosing’ to remain trapped in the repetitive pattern – through fear of something terrible happening if I don’t do it – is empowering enough to make me think ‘what exactly am I so afraid of? ‘
The other morning another ocd stopper popped into my mind. I reasoned…
Everything that is bound to happen, will happen anyway – regardless of how many times I repeat the pattern.
You can also reason…
What has been…has been;
What will be…will be.
If we can relax into the full experience of life, and see it merely as an adventure of the spirit – without judging ourselves or anyone else – maybe we can get by.
One last empowering little OCD affirmation/statement you can say to yourself, which ‘throws a spanner’ in the works of an ocd episode, is…
There is a need (to do the repetitive thing), but, do I comply, or not?
…It may not stop the repetitive habit, but, it certainly causes your brain to realize the possibility of a new way.
The challenge, and gift, of the Tesla Metamorphosis practitioner is to judge nothing…extending their loving heart to all…even the most unlovable (in self and others). Here is where a radical shift in consciousness can take place…raising our vibration and causing us to take on a higher frequency, or, state of awareness/consciousness. The lightness of being that can be felt when one chooses to do this is remarkably liberating. This may be a task we all need to do, to enable ourselves to move out of the quandary we have been in for so long.
(In steps a voice of doubt)….
How could I not judge all the bad stuff? How could I forgive, and ‘be’ forgiven for all the wrongs that have been committed? We need to be punished! We don’t deserve the privilege of not being held accountable.
Here might be where we get stuck. If only we could ‘see’ (have a birds eye view) of the cause of things…the natural course of events which lead up to things happening…things said…things done; “Ah, yes”…we might think…”Now I can understand why that happened! It wasn’t ‘because’ of me, it was because of …..” Knowing there is rhyme and reason to things, we wouldn’t need to take things personally; we wouldn’t need to accept the burden of being solely responsible (or making others solely responsible) for all the “bad” stuff. We are not sole perpetrators…we are participants…acting from a natural instinct and drive to do so. Are we going to blame ourselves, or others, for having been unconscious players? When we don’t realise the karmic wheel we are stuck on – the cause and effect nature of the natural world – well, we continue the motions, the “eye for an eye” thing. When we finally see, and realise, this automatic pilot cycle we are stuck on, we can begin to imagine a way out of it; and so glad will be our heart. A great teacher taught us to ‘turn the other cheek’. Being no impractical suggestion, this was a practical ‘instruction’ on how to negate this perpetuating karmic cycle…how to neutralise it affects.
Back to the part about forgiving self; once we realise the cycle we are trapped in, we can slowly (or quickly) begin to develop mercy and compassion for ourselves. Recognizing our own mishaps of judgment and action in others will allow us to begin to have mercy and compassion for ourselves. We will be able to give mercy; and, you know how it goes….what you ‘give’ you shall receive.
(Voice of doubt queries)….Is there punishment in ‘knowing’ these things, but not ‘acting’ on them? (i.e. By continuing to act badly, do we compound our ability to forgive ourselves?)
Just know this is a very tough and stubborn ‘skin’ we are trying to shed…our old habits; and let us not put ourselves down for occasionally slipping up. Instead, know this is a hard task, and expect to occasionally fall backwards. But, let us persevere…let us ‘carry our crosses’, and, keep our heads pointed in the direction we want to go.
When tempted to become angry (for example), rather than slipping into the whole drama and fiasco of it (and ultimate guilt/karma) reason with yourself – ask: ‘why’ am I feeling angry? Bring awareness to the situation – minus any need to judge it – remembering it is a natural response…an ‘effect’ of a cause…an equal and opposite reaction to a thing. Light on the situation allows you navigate through it. You can decide…”O.k., where ‘do’ I want to go with this? Actually, I don’t ‘want’ to be angry; so, I will let it go”.
As OCD symptoms tried to set in – standing in front of the mirror – I looked myself in the eye, and defiantly pronounced: “Be brave, ancient warrior!” I bundled my fears together and took them with me…bravely into the future.
To break away from the things we most cherish, the things which keep us bound in flesh, to the earth – to disown the illusion. Jesus said….’Anyone who loves there father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me’… [Matthew 10:37]
By remaining attached to the things we love, we too, keep ‘them’ earth bound. Letting our loved ones ‘go’ may be the greatest gift we could ever give them. The fear of a loss of identity makes this a (seemingly) very hard thing to do. This ‘designer garment’…this ‘cloak’, hides our ‘true’ identity. This ‘thing’ that gets discarded at the end of life – and, we remain so fixed on it…of the memory of it; the feel of it; the touch of it – it is very real to us – yet, it goes to dust; and we continue to try to grasp it…this ‘dust’.
Who are our ‘loved ones’…the ‘cloaks’; the ‘garments’; or, the one wearing the garment – the ‘Spirit’ / the ‘Awareness’ / the Conscious Dweller? Who ‘is’ Mum? Which part of Mum am I so attached to? ….(a spirit of remorse/strife takes over)….
……I am attached by all my remorse….of all theunkind words spoken in anger; the regret; the fear I have driven her away…driven away the…… (tiering of ‘explanations’) ….”Blah, blah, blah, blah!”….. Spiralling into regret and reason once again?! (negative voice proclaims)
‘Yes’! (positive voice defies)…For ‘in’ it I find reason…I see reason…I am able to ‘understand’ and accept what has happened, and MOVE ON! So, ‘you’ can wallow all you want! I’m Up and Out of here! (Is this me ‘abandoning’ part of myself? I suddenly imagine a screaming child throwing a tantrum in a shopping centre. The parent would be tempted, but would not abandon the child). So, no! …I cannot. I must let it ‘be’). You have every rightto think what you want; I will not abandon you for it; I will let you be, but…watch ‘me’ play.
Soon, we will forget that we had any differences, and, in letting our guards down, we will become one. And the fiery furnace shall burn away all the remnants of our frictions; and, once again, we will be given a ‘clean slate’ ready to be written on….again. Ghostly memories remain of our past (?) Where ‘do’ all the ashes go….the ‘dust’…particles floating through our Universe; absorbing light, or, casting shadows? Singed to a vapour…a carbon vapour (?) –building matter for future worlds…future ‘playgrounds’.
Disclaimer: Everything I write comes from my own voice of reason, speaking to me, telling me ‘how it is’. I share this, not because I claim it as any type of “truth”, but, because, as it helps ‘me’ through my own trials, maybe it can help someone else too.
I had this exhilarating realization one recent morning while making my bed and stricken with fear and uncertainty about end of the world prophecies; natural disasters; terrible news events all going on in the world, and feeling helpless and vulnerable to all of it. In the midst of this fear I suddenly decided to not see it as a scary thing happening ‘to’ us (which keeps us bound in fear), but rather, to see it neither as “good” nor ‘bad’/”evil”, but simply as an expressionofALL THAT IS.
As a result of this insight, I came up with the above affirmation which, if needed, could be used as an strengthening affirmation (in the event of an ascension/rapture process...’if ‘one were to occur)!