O.C.D – On automatic pilot

Whilst getting stuck in one of my O.C.D (Obsessive Compulsive) patterns, I stopped and realized something…

With O.C.D you’re on ‘automatic pilot’ – and the pilot is O.C.D. You, like a stunned mullet, sit in the passenger seat doing your repetitive habits – like in a trance – and becoming exhausted – not realizing you can switch from automatic pilot and change the captain. You can decide to change the direction.

When you do, you may become aware of all those nasty thoughts (which were causing the OCD in the first place) sort of dragging behind you… ‘stuck’ in your body/mind field of awareness. What then?

The observer collapses the field. (I think of the Observer Affect)

Notice… simply ‘notice’ them. Notice how they feel in your body. Noticing something brings ‘light’ to the subject. Light exposes the thing.

Notice it – place all your attention onto it – and soon, just maybe, it will all simply dissolveand you’ll be free.

Amen

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I Cannot Reject Myself Any Longer

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I woke up this morning becoming aware of the OCD patterns I keep falling into, and realised….

Rejecting the “bad feelings” or “bad thoughts”, which cause one to continue with the OCD motions/patterns of repeat until the bad thought or feeling goes away – or at least subsides – may be futile. Perhaps the challenge really is to integrate them into our whole being…rejecting NO aspect of ourselves, in order to find peace, and finally let go of the fear.